I’ve done it this time.
Goddamm beginner throwing me off,
catching an edge, and bam! down–
landed on my knee.
Now the thing is huge and blue,
achy and done with me.
Stressed beyond elasticity,
abused beyond belief,
the joint’s gone bad for good.
They begged me,
left and right,
pleaded for reason
Then right went wrong: gave out, gave up
and I gave in to the knife.
A quick stitchery and I was back.
But for far too long, so many years,
I ran too far too fast–getting nowhere,
jumped one too many bumps–slowing me down,
slammed to the ground–rising up again,
drop-down kneeled in defeat–blowing them out,
cross-checked, side-swiped, full-on collision
knee to knee, knee to shin, knee to head,
pressing their limits to hold me
carry me on, onward and beyond,
only to let me down.
And now, after avowed respect
caution, and a pact:
you be kind to me and
I’ll return in kind,
I reneged on our deal.
I beat us up once again.
And landed there,
in the cold icy wind–felled,
torn, beaten and crushed
in the frozen crusted hill,
crying, “No more!”
Pounding the frozen earth,
“Not one more fucking minute!!”
The last run to the bottom
yielded only pain
where pleasure used to be.
Going down was always the easiest.
Not any more, not this time.
“Not my knee, please God not my knee.
Who’ll stand up for me now?”